I really need to learn to actually speak Spanish.

I have one month left of my summer internship and since week one the only thing I've wanted to do was quit. I absolutely hate working at this place. I feel like its sucking the life out of me. (つ﹏<)･ﾟ｡

I'm not sure why I hate it so much. Its relatively easy its just my stress level is really high from working there. I've never dealt with this much stress before and its eating away at me. I had a job before that I needed to quit. It in Illinois which is a right to work state. I gave a one week notice but not everyone seemed to have understood I wasn't coming back until the last day. I simply left. For this internship I have to give 5 days notice. I imagine after giving notice, my supervisor will not give me a good recommendation. What I don't get is why I am getting a recommendation from her at all.

She mentioned that one of my final tasks would be basically to write my own letter of recommendation and that she would sign it. I didn't and still don't really want one from her even after she mentioned it. I think its a little fucked up that I'd write my own recommendation letter....I mean what the fuck do I know about writing them? And the point isnt for me to recommend myself its for her to express her thoughts about me.

Either way I really REALLY really want to give my notice and leave August 8th. I wonder if she'll take it well. Honestly I'm not sure how to break it to her. God I wish I knew what to say..... Should I fake that my grandmother is dying? Its not like I'll ever see my supervisor again anyways. (｡•́︿•̀｡)

P.S. I was thinking today that I really need to put more effort into speaking Spanish. I know how to write and type in Spanish well enough but I have no confidence in speaking it. Hell I had never spoken to my own grandmother (who only speaks Spanish) until this summer when she visited for a few days. And even then it was half broken because I didn't have the time to think about what I wanted to say....Literally everyone in El Paso speaks Spanish. I had a bit of culture shock when I first came over because so many people speak Spanish. I came to resent it for a while. Thinking things like "why do they talk to me in Spanish? This isn't Mexico, it's the USA. We speak English here" type things. Thats not a very good way to view the world. I should embrace the culture and learn to speak Spanish better while I have the chance. So that's what I've resolved to do. I'm going to join a club and try speaking mostly Spanish around town. ( •̀ᄇ• ́)ﻭ✧

P.P.S. What got me thinking about all this Spanish business was a picture from reddit haha